TO MY FELLOW ARTISTS:
I just want to tell you all how much you inspire me and that I appreciate your intense passion. I know you do what you do because you love it and I want to give you round of applause. Long long hours, crazy work conditions, sacrifices. If we’re lucky , we break even. If we’re very lucky we make a few dollars. And if we’re very very lucky…. well that’s the goal right because that will give us the freedom we all want in our passions. Every day I get to indulge in my passion I feel lucky. I enjoy working with all of you. I enjoy your posts about your projects that we are not working together on even if I don’t always have the time to completely check them out. Keep doing what you do because the world would be pretty dull without you. I’m proud of you and I believe you should pat yourself on the back for taking risks, for your creativity, and for your drive.
Your fan and colleague,
I write this with fake (or is it?) blood under my fingernails. Last night was a wrap on the horror independent film Sociopathia. Mara was my first leading role and a complex one at that. I was honored and grateful to play her. Playing Mara was the most challenging thing I have done: 10 days of straight of 12 hour plus days nonstop (literally) of changing moods and outfits and scenes. (Sidenote: Fun Sociopathia drinking game= do a shot every time Mara changes an outfit). And despite any bumps we had along the way, I loved every minute of it.
I think of my roles like children I’m raising and when things wrap it always feels like a conclusion but also like I just sent my kid off to college and I worry and wonder if I could’ve given her (the character) more, given her better, and will probably feel so after I watch the final cut. But, I try to tell myself I gave her all I could with what I had/knew at the time.
There are a lot of people I would like to thank. John Martineau: thank you for being a great colleague and friend and connecting me with this opportunity. Ruby LaRocca and Rich Mallery: thank you for casting me and for taking a chance on me, I hope I made Mara into your vision. Suited Four, Inc.: What a team! I could go on for days and you are all so wonderful in your own ways. The way you work together is inspiring. Thank you for your immediate welcome, your encouragement, your feedback, senses of humor, random minute rap/dance parties and all your hard work! Brandy Hellcat Noir: Thank you for making sure my makeup looked like Mara at all times (despite me always eating while you did so!). Kaleigh Brown: Thank you for all your hard work on special effects! I don’t know how you do what you do so fast but it’s amazing! The rest of the cast (sorry if I missed anyone, still sleepy!): Asta Paredes, Nicolette Le Faye, Nicola Fiore, Desiree Saetia, Tabetha Ray, George Stover, Dante Rene, Keelan Morgan, Cori Dials, Sean Murray, Brandy and Ruby: Thank you for playing Mara’s counterparts and sharing your talent with me. I enjoyed working with each one of you and getting to know you in what little bit of time we had to have conversations about anything not Sociopathia related! EVERYONE INVOLVED: I hope to work with you all again! And lastly but certainly not least, my boyfriend, Danny: Thank you for your never ending support and encouragement (I can’t even write this without crying). Thank you for the beautiful flowers sent to my motel room at just the right time, for driving to see me for less than 8 hours, and for saying the words “I’m proud of you” and meaning them. I love you so so much.
Mara, I hope I gave you everything you needed to come to life! Goodnight for now, get some rest, you need it. :)
I LOVE COLLABORATING WITH OTHER ARTISTS! And helping promote them. I am fortunate to be featured by the band idy on their new album releasing May 6th. Follow them on twitter and check out their music at the sites below!
Model - PLAYBOY model Tammy Jean
MUA/Hair - Tammy Jean
Photographer - JC
Location - PICTURE YOU STUDIOS
Made myself laugh.
I don’t wear glasses in real life but I wear them sometimes when shooting.
Photographer: Michael Lawrence Photography
I’m taking bookings for Miami for May 31st- June 3rd
Photographer/copyright: Michael Knight
Today is my last day playing Gladys on the movie @ApocalypseKiss. I understand her and relate to her so so much more now than I thought I did when I took on the role and I’m sad to say bye to her but this is the beauty of acting. It is by far the biggest role I’ve ever had and I can’t thank Director Christian Grillo and the entire Potent Media crew enough for putting their faith in me. I hope I did you and myself proud. Gladys has been a good release for me at this time in my life and I’ll always remember that. Gladys is fouler mouthed than me but it’s because its her protective mechanism. But her heart is big, she loves so much and so honestly, willing to do anything for the one she loves. She’s longing and looking for that home feeling, to feel safe and loved. She loves to laugh and have a good time. Her clothes rock and many of her wardrobe pieces I would wear. She’s more ditsy than me but its endearing. She brings a sense of innocence to a world that is really not innocent. And as I look back at her, I can only hold my breath until release and hope that as my first major role, I portrayed all this and did her justice. She will always be a part of me and I’ll always remember this experience as a special one. Thank you again Chris, Carmella, the crew, my fellow cast and all of Potent Media.
For Mitch and Jess Fatel. XOXO
Photographer/Copyright: Don Little
Model/Hair/Makeup: Tammy Jean
Photographer/copyright: Joshua Evans
Model/hair/makeup: Tammy Jean
"Dancing, I find my flame and my joy, because I dance, slide, run… I keep the wind in the folds of my dress, the rain on my hair, and light in my eyes.” ~Anias Nin
Photo/copyright: Mknight Photography
Model/Hair/Makeup: Tammy Jean